To carb or not to carb
Tonite as I am typing this I am really overwhelmed with stress and feeling a strong almost craving for some carbs to crank up the serotonin. Knowing myself I am consciously CHOOSING not to eat any non essential carbs as in the end it will not change my situation. One of my kids is bi-polar and she is tragically and not her fault spiraling around and may need hospitalization. Not so easy to do when one is half a continent away. If anyone is familiar with this mental illness it is one MF ! She was in a car accident ( not her fault) and the results have left her with chronic pain and need for steriods, pain management meds and really incapacitated with a day to day prognosis. So , juggling this mess and her psych meds has become overwhelming for her. Ahhh, like I always Philospohize " little children ,little problems, big children ( or adult children ) RUN for your life ! So the last 2 days have been increasingly stressful ; hopefully tomorrow he doctor will decide if hospitalization will be necessary !
I know that the old eating habits will not resolve this problem nor help my sense of serenity; probably will be contraproductive probably, hell !it will oral suicide . I am hungry ;but need to be careful how and when I eat. Maybe I will make a omlette with some butter and cheese. For me I must appreciate I am not in a state of feeling deprived and that leads to resentments and THEN...... So what I choose to eat must be satisfying and also healthy .
Enough, I am glad I shared this . As we say ,the only out of the pain is to go through it , even if that mean without our old coping drugs of choice.
Thanks for listening and if you are brave enough sharing your reflections
Published Sunday, August 10, 2014 09:08 PM by pgreen6840
Induction, Weight Loss, Cravings / Problem foods, Personal observations & lessons learned